What's with this number that I like?
Well, it's because I have been truly, madly, deeply in LOVE for five years now. Five precious and great long years of trust, passion, love, love, and nothing but love. I even can't recall the exact moment that we've started our courting stage. All I know is that he is my first and last, and we didn't wait for the love to spark, instead, WE DID SET THE LOVE ON FIRE!
Five years ago, I have a private notebook in which I wrote all the thoughts and emotions that crossed my mind. That was the time when I was so active in writing, that I almost didn't eat and I always sleep late. As I was reviewing my notebook again, I laughed out loud when I read all the contents of it. It was hilarious to know and to realize all the craziness that I have been through for the past years of my colorful college life. It was so youthful and innocent.
The first few pages contained all the essays, poems and short stories. Also included are my personal quotes and my so-called status update. And then I was amazed on the last few pages. In there contained some of the long lost memories of Rainier and I, five years ago. Suddenly, I began to reminisce.
On my note as it was written:
September 20, 2007
As of now, I have so many doubts in mind. Why did it have to be this way? It was so hard.
I have so many questions and I don't know why. Is it because of someone whose making a way into my heart out of nowhere? I am not sure if he's really that sincere to me or is it just a part of the show? It is hard to distinguish. It is hard to decide. This is the first time that it happened to me, and I should be happy for that. Finally, someone is appreciating me. But what am I thinking?
1. Age Gap - I know that age doesn't matter when it comes to love. He's six years older than me. Bu it seems awkward when everybody sees us together. Especially when the height is considered. Oh come on! I think he is around 5'7" or above and I am just 5 flat. What if we'll be official? Are we will going to be fitted as lovers or father-daughter type?
2. Our way of thinking - I am a teenager, who has many dreams. I am ambitious, and I love doing things alone. Since he is in his early thirty's, and is almost finishing his studies, what if he think of building a family soon? I don't know how to handle this kind of thing. I don't want to make mistakes. All depends on the matter of consequences.
3. The impact to our families - This is a hard one too. What if both our families doesn't agree on our relationship? What shall we do?
4. Lastly, would he only make me cry? - I am aware that hurt in a relationship is there. But you see, I am just a kid. I don't know him very well and I want to tell him to slow things down. I want us to be friends first and know each other well before we proceed. But what if he accepts it, then he waited, then got bored, and finally decided to walk away from me? Gosh! What if I'm starting to fall in love with him and he fell out of love of me?
Hay! It's really hard to be in this kind of situation. Being in a courtship stage was really confusing and only gives me a headache. But, the truth is I am so happy. every time that he is making his way to me, I feel thousand of butterflies in my stomach. I feel so blooming and beautiful everytime our eyes meet. I just don't know why. Is it what they call love?
I hope he won't ask for my answers again. Not yet. I still have to consult myself and God.
But I think it won't take too long...I have a feeling...sasagutin ko na rin siya!:)
And that's what my first impression of love. I really had a hard time to decide. But to tell you, I didn't wait so long. I fell in love with him so madly that even myself couldn't explain. The feeling was mutual and I can't stand it. I wanted to tell him that I love him and I hope he'll say it to me, too. And so it was.
SEPTEMBER 30, 2007 - ANNARAIN WAS BORN
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| at Bagac, Bataan |
Derived from my nickname, Anna and the first four letters of his name, Rainier. I was actually speechless and overwhelmed about that night, when he told me that he loves me so much, and his eagerness for me to become his girl. I was like, "Who is this man standing in front of me, and has pursued me to love him back?" I never would have thought that moment to happen that finally, for the first time, I AM REALLY IN LOVE!
I had so many emotions that it only gave me a stomachache. I wanted to scream, laugh out loud, cry, etc. etc. I suddenly thanked the Lord for what He have given me that night. A very special night that would change the course of our lives forever.
Three years passed, so do our relationship, we graduated from college (I, with Bachelor of Arts degree in English, and him with Bachelor of Science degree in Civil Engineering), we started to have a job, and finally realized that we wanted to take what we have in the next level.
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| Sealed with a kiss! - at our Civil Wedding in Caloocan City |
JANUARY 24, 2010 - WE TIED THE KNOT
As soon as I reached my 21'st birthday, we got married. We just had a simple yet intimate civil wedding with our immediate families and very few friends. I was so in cloud nine that time. Finally, from that day and forever I will be called Mrs. Chiradee Ann Fronda. I also saw through his eyes that he was happy too. Not only because we tied the knot, but soon we will be having the most precious gift the Lord would ever gave a loving couple - and that was our first child.
SEPTEMBER 4, 2010 - OUR FIRST ANGEL WAS BORN
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| the first glance of innocence with our daughter Lindsay |
Earlier that Saturday when I began to feel pain. My OBGyne told me that if I will begin to have pain, I should seek her immediately for check-up. There I was told that I was in 4 cm and could be admitted as soon as possible. But I insisted to go home first and wait a little more time before admission to prevent higher hospital bills. At 3:00 pm I told my husband that the pain was uncontrollable and he took me to the hospital which was luckily near by our house. At exactly 7: 10 pm, I gave birth to a bouncing 7 lbs. baby girl.
A HAPPY FAMILY
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| a perfect shot from our family trip at Jollibee during the Typhoon Gener's strike at Metro Manila |
After two years of marriage, we are still in the process of the first few stages of building a family, which I thought is not just a piece of cake. Rhen and I, as a husband and wife should work hand-in-hand to support each other and make our relationship grow more, and as parents to our daughter, to give our best and 100% effort to make her life as beautiful as every children of God should have. We may be facing a lot of troubles and trials but I know in myself that the Lord has plans and He wants us to be more faithful and never let go of with Him. As a song says, "You bleed just to know you're alive.."
FIVE
That stands for the 5 fruitful and colorful years that I am sharing my life with the man that I am building my dream family with, and the only one that I used to love and will love for eternity, through the eyes of many and through the eyes of God.
Lastly, as I always say on our every anniversaries...
FIVE YEARS FOR NOW....FOREVER TO GO!!!
I love you so much, Mahal!
:)
